yesh!!!!!!!!!!!!!i'm done with the exams. It really felt great and happy to finish one semester. Its a great relief because finally i get the time to rest physically and mentally. Exams are a great torture but ironically i sort of like it. You feel motivated, on the right track, clear goals, etc. Rather then living days routinely, slacking your youth away, better to do something beneficial.
Rank of honour: Programming <---- sucks! Chemistry <--- clearly defeated Physics <--- aye..i actually leave no blanks?! Electrical Engineering <--- blank mind = dead Math <--- easy but i screw it up so darn it all....me is going to die when i see the result slip in the letter box muahaha *bitter smile* okie..enough of the exams. Temporarily chuck to one side and forgotten permanently(hopefully).
Last paper on sat 2nd dec so since all my friends are not done yet(am glad that my period of hell is short) i ask petr and kj out! long time and though its a short while due to some constraints but hey..its better than nothing...thanks for accompanying me especially to kj who went back to cjc with me!!
its been a while since i stepped into cj and the feeling is kinda sad. i really miss those days.. Days when we get to play bridge, play pool after school, mug tgt, talk crap with one another, eat noodle king, western food, our weekly kfc, listening to kj teasing us, reading comics whom yunx generously lent to me, standing at the quandrangle, rushing into LT1 for my 'fav' seat(juz to beat stan and mon to it), or sitting at the 'rocking' chair, locking the classrm, chasing/nagging everyone out esp edwin! taking attendance, not going for gp lect, alice my jogging partner, comical theep, walking thru the drain..many many more. sweet memories...
went back. ran 4 rounds while kj ran twice as much lolx...e result of not exercising. lolx..nus is juz filled with all kinds of pple that are so different from me haha*sadistic laughter* so aft that met petr and we headed str for pool..our fav lucky plaza hang out. and we were greeted with kj's "oh boil, aren't u pple hungry" look. :] so ended up eating first. long time neva go and discovered that the price has dropped..oh cool~ and me made a blunder a very serious one which i do not want to elaborate. refused to. haha... it goes to show how much the thing is bothering me. sad to say~
okie dokie... so aft this outing we realized that we really must meet up more often. me, petr, kj :] so dinner out tgt dis week..i hope yippee.. and we can take loads of pic and send it to alice! xmas is cumin so dere are loads to see/walk/enjoy. and the best part..i no need to spend loads of money. cheers.
hmm i promised to tell petr whats' going on so here goes: it felt strange how one judge some things now and a few years ago, can differ so much. symbolizing a change in us human... family plays an impt role in shaping the inner you. envt plays a crucial role in enhancing/distorting it..be it bad or good. but at the end of the day i strongly believe that we are still who we are..no matter how a person change, he/she does not differ much. This applies to evrything but for this i'm refering to e family section. lolx...like i told you.
what's bothering me is everything and it sort of snowballed cos dere's nowhere to break it so i'm refering to the fear in me..e fear of losing my loved ones. haha...everything might seem alright but actually after that incident i sort of changed. I dun want to regret losing my loved ones or sld i put it in dis way..i dun wan to becum someone who's indirectly responsible for e lost. I no longer feel like arguing moreover talk about rebelling..Its true that whatever you cannot achieve, you will want your children to finish that dream. in e past i sort of feel that's being unfair but now..its no big deal. my mother has many regrets in her whole life that we as her children will never understand so instead of spending so much time trying to understand..why not do something to ease tt pain, tt regret, tt unhappiness. It wun kill u or make u suffer as long as u find e enjoyment in it. Everything has something dere for you to enjoy. A simple thing like msging ur frenz is a form of enjoyment. When u successfully make the others happy, you too will feel good. It wun be a temporary happiness juz like buying branded stuff and going ooo ahh about it.. as the days go, it will b lost. cos its no longer fashionable. Being old makes one reflect alot of one's life(since u're are one leg into dere) which partly results into a hot tempered mama.Many perspectives, it juz depends on which you chose. For me i choose the bland, simple life. Its always e simple thing tt makes you feel happy... juz like kj accompanying me down to cj. Really appreciated it.
hmm...guess thats about all. Ideas are all jumbled up so pardon me. Its juz wat i feel.. hard to understand hard to explain but thanx for always being dere...e calls do help its no longer an irritant.. it makes me more real...i guess tt's e word. haha as for e rest...will blog e second part and tell u e third one personally.. tt's if i take e initiative...
