reading the offline msn conversation a day later
cos basically meiy's battery is pretty low alr
and unknowingly tears welled up
somehow those memories came afloat
if i was as brave tt time
if only i dared to question
if only i'm willing to talk and share
if only i had done more,
put down those 'covers'
and watsoever
then maybe the ending will be diff
or even if not, some qns can be answered
or we can be sth else other than what's today
sad~
so a chapter has closed with a temporary fullstop or so in the current state
but u've done pretty well
not many can be able to get over it with such rational and calmness
or so that whats meiy thinks
even tho its there and will be for a long time
but life has to move on
what's the point of mourning over it
what can u get from it other than more wrinkles, puffy eyes, wet pillow, etc..
so moving on...
and thanks for sharing it with me, it wasn't a nuisance at all.
strength!
alrights so shall start with what i planned to blog intially
somehow or other i can't fathom what i was thinking and feeling over the past few weeks
i can't find any basis to justify for my actions
and it's ratehhr upsetting in some extent
ever more when no one seems to uds what the hell meiy is trying to do.get.take.
i dun blame them cos neither do i
and it's not tt they can't be bothered
its just puzzling
in short, i need a space to breathe in and be myself
i need a comfy zone ard me with no alien invasion
i need...
what do i need?
to that, its still a word - dunno
but now i need my sleep
badly
