wish upon a star
(Tuesday, January 5 / 9:21 AM)

i wish
i wish
i wish

for a magical wand
that can whizz out things that meiy has left undone
that can whizz out things that are pleasing to the eyes
that can whizz out things to make me smile
that can whizz out things that lighten the burden. the worries. the nagging feeling.

just suddenly feel like wishing for magical powers
and just with a swish in the wand, effortlessly
meiy is able to obtain what she hope for

draining life
moody life
the time when u start questioning yourself...
why am i doing this?
what's the purpose? where will it lead me to? what will my future be?
when will the life i lead be really mine truly
.............

at year 4, i feel it.
the sense of fatigue
the sense of helplessness
the sense of 'frantic freedom'
wanting to just chuck it aside
but u noe u can't and rationally won't.
the point when comparing results and being competitive seems unimportant
the point when studies doesn't mean that much alr
but meiy also dunno what's important
other than her frenz and her family
coming to sch has become a chore..
detest it
but at the same time..feeling much at home in the corner of ea
mixed feelings..up and down.
when will carefree come?