the pen is alive again... (Thursday, February 14 / 2:09 AM)
and so it's the year 2013 already.
First post for the year.... too lazy to change my blogskin bwahaha
even though i will only start work next monday.
Just feel like wandering my life away juz liddat..
playing games..
watching youtube..
hungrily browse for suju videos... etc..
brainless meiy acts up yet again
in two month's time, it will be two years of work life..
started out with the urge to learn.. the passion of wanting to be an engineer just kinda died along the sch days and totally dashed with the disappointing reactangular paper... and so despite not being an engineer nor even the paved way to it...meiy gave herself two years
AND SO here it will be two years.
where should meiy go...straight..u turn...jump...???
have been thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking but not coming to an answer..
not rising to the challenges? lazy or tired?
mental drained when it's not even two years O.O'''
meiy must have a weak mind, ain't it?
carefully building a wall around myself..occassionally allowing certain few to barge in...
am i just afraid to lose..am i just a prideful girl..am i just irritated with myself...
perhaps i should really just stop thinking so much..throw in the white towel and whisk myself away to the K land....change my name (or even change my face LOL) and lead a totally unlike-meiy life....
throw away all those obligations and break free of all those self set-up(?) chains..
.........meiy being meiy...... - not possible
keke...just typing whatever first comes in my mind..not bothered with organising my thoughts.. but then again is MY blog not an essay not a GP.. tsktsk. who cares. :X
ending off with infinite-H 's "Special Girl" Cause you are my Special special special special special girl Special special special special special girl
